izumimetal's room

diary

why do people get stuck in the past? i mean, i’m not talking about depression —that’s a serious thing—. but the fact of staying attached to certain people, people who are no longer part of your life, and you keep them in mind like, once a year or even less, because that’s what’s expected.

for example, college people you only see during the christmas season. you don't talk in the whole year, even living in the same city. you don't see each other, ever, but in fucking christmas, because at some point years and years ago when you got along you stablished that "tradition". and you still keep it, meeting every year, and everybody pretends they've been missing each other and all that stuff.

maybe i'm detached. or maybe i'm just dumb. i always blame myself for this. for letting my relationships die when i don't get the point of keeping them anymore, while all those people still meet, year after year, christmas after christmas.

this is the moment i try to say something super interesting and edgy and well, you know.

anyways i never thought i'd be writing my silly mundane things in html. my regular job has nothing to do with coding. but i'm tired. i'm so tired with nowadays' social media. even sad.

during the last week i've been creating this little space. it's so incohate, rudimentary, but appropiate for a person like me i guess. tbh, i love this site.

i'm wondering if habbo hotel is still running.

and also wondering what i'm going to eat for dinner.